Today (26th) is Thanksgiving Day. I don't celebrate it, but I've searched some articles about it. I always did it whenever I got new thing I didn't know XD
Thanksgiving is celebrated on the 4th Thursday in November in USA and it's a tradition to give thanks for the harvest. And it's kinda a sign that Christmas season is began.
So, today my guy got a surprise from his mom. His pop pop, it's how he calls his grandpa, came to his house. He is a wise man and has done so much in his life. He is like a Mr. KIA (Know It All), ask him and he'll know the answer. For me, this kind of guy is so fucking interesting. Cause I'm so thirsty of knowledge and I do like asking a lot of question. You can say that it's hard to satisfy me before you get bored and tired. My guy said that his pop pop is one of the people he really want me to meet and yeah, I really really want to meet him! I didn't have the chance to meet my grandpa and even if I did, I'm sure I couldn't ask much. So I was imagining if I were there. It seems like I'd occupied his grandpa for myself all day all night and made him jealous, lol. Feels like I was being a 7 years old kid who'd ask about anything.
Then I asked him some things and this is his answers.
* What is happiness for you?
Happiness is the moments in your life where you know you are gonna remember something and never let it go.
* Why sometimes people get jealous or not happy when others are happy?
It's called being human. When someone has it better than you.
* How to be able to bless others and be sincerely happy for them?
When you meet the right person, you'll know what to do.
Aaaannd, he said that he can tell I'm beautiful and caring from what I asked XD oh gosh.. I didn't know that what you ask or what you wonder can reflect or represent yourself. I really can't tell. For someone who can see the value of others without judging them, I think he is quite wise.
Quote said that happiness isn't something you find, but something you create. To think about it, when it's something you found, you could lose it anytime, whether you want it or not. And since it's something you create, I think the shape of happiness wouldnt change. It could be wider, but it wouldn't lose. When you found something annoying from it, you could go back to the definition of your happiness and the annoyance would disappear likes it never happened. That what I think.
I myself, still can't say what is happiness for me. But, according to pop pop's words, my happiness is the moment I've spent with my guy. Time when we are smiling, laughing, and even crying of happiness. And what I got from his answer is that we can't make everyone happy and we can't happy for everyone. Just like the dorama I watched, its said that we can only take care of someone whom 3 meters away. I think it's not just about the distance, but also the bond. So, rather than make everyone happy, make people around you that you care about happy. Rather than be happy for everyone, be happy for people you love instead. That way, you can get more happiness.
And I still have to learn about my own happiness and how to get it back. I missed the happy time without the uneasy-unknown-feeling in my heart. I want to look back, so I can learn from it and be better for the present and the future of me.
うわぁぁー 久しぶり～ で、それだけだｗｗ。
最近何があったのか？あったかも、なかったかも。
まぁー
ギターを弾いたあの男子、逢いたかった～！！
以上だｗｗｗ
最近何があったのか？あったかも、なかったかも。
まぁー
ギターを弾いたあの男子、逢いたかった～！！
以上だｗｗｗ
Well, I got a new boyfriend again. W-what?? Again?? Oh my gosh, what's wrong with me? I thought I had a boyfriend at the end of March, then why I got another one so soon? Well, it simple. I'm popular, lol.
No, no, no. It's not because I'm popular. But yeah, I'm popular, haha. Nah, forget it.
So, why I broke up with my last boyfriend? Well, I couldn't say that we are break, but I couldnt say that I'm still with him too. I mean, I approached him again because I need someone to talk to, and then he confessed to me again. So I thought it wouldnt be that bad to be in a relationship. Okay, I admit that I'm wrong. I mean, I shouldnt accept his confession if I don't have any feeling toward him. And then, it's about 2 weeks, maybe? We are broke up.
It's not because I'm not good enough for him. It's not because he doesnt love me anymore, or something like that. I don;t like to say it, but I'm too good for him. He really is a jerk, not personality wise, but mind wise. I was a bit mad and he apologized. But after that, he acted like nothing happened and didnt say anything bout our relationship. He is busy with his new job and rarely contacted me. So yeah, we break up without saying anything.
Then I met him. Not so soon yet not so long. He is a nice, talkactive, excited, and funny guy. That was my first impression of him. Seeing he talked to others are so refreshing somehow. And we never talked directly. I meant, we were talking in chat where some of people gather in there. And, at that time, th chat box was a little messed because of my recording. Someone leaked my cover I gave, and the two of them talking how wonderful my voice. Then, some other people wanted to listen to it too, but I didn't gave them all. I just gave to some people, cuz I'm not so confident with my singing.
I gave him my cover and soon after that he said it loud in the chat how wonderful and beautiful my voice. I'm happy people like my singing, but I don't really like when they say it in public or exaggerate it, like they did. And i always acted annoyed with their praise. Then, he messaged me and apologize. He didnt mean to embarrassing me in the chatbox, but he thought that my voice is really great. And because of his apologizes, we began to talk in private message.
That was my fault. I was the type who sometimes provoke people to tell their feeling and such. I've made some guys confessed their feeling to me because of that. And I made a promise to myself that I will never do it again. But then, accidentally I did to him. Not really provoked him. Besides, I didnt know his feeling. But when he said, "I will flirt back if you are not in relationship. I dont wanna get a kick in my ass." Then I answer him by saying that I don't have a boyfriend. Oh my gosh, I was so stupid. I could say that I have a boyfriend, if I want. But why I told him the truth? But, if I didnt say something like that, I wouldnt be his girlfriend right now, and I wouldnt know him more, and I will regret it.
So, here I am, with my new boyfriend who really really love me like crazy. And yeah, we are both crazy, lol. I really love him and so grateful because he loves me back not even twice, but more than that.
And, the funny thing of us is..
I was always wondering why a person like him exist and love me. And, he also wondering the same thing, reverse. We both think that we are the luckiest person in this world. And we both think each other is so wonderful.
I hope we can get along together for so long. I really want this relationship last forever...
No, no, no. It's not because I'm popular. But yeah, I'm popular, haha. Nah, forget it.
So, why I broke up with my last boyfriend? Well, I couldn't say that we are break, but I couldnt say that I'm still with him too. I mean, I approached him again because I need someone to talk to, and then he confessed to me again. So I thought it wouldnt be that bad to be in a relationship. Okay, I admit that I'm wrong. I mean, I shouldnt accept his confession if I don't have any feeling toward him. And then, it's about 2 weeks, maybe? We are broke up.
It's not because I'm not good enough for him. It's not because he doesnt love me anymore, or something like that. I don;t like to say it, but I'm too good for him. He really is a jerk, not personality wise, but mind wise. I was a bit mad and he apologized. But after that, he acted like nothing happened and didnt say anything bout our relationship. He is busy with his new job and rarely contacted me. So yeah, we break up without saying anything.
Then I met him. Not so soon yet not so long. He is a nice, talkactive, excited, and funny guy. That was my first impression of him. Seeing he talked to others are so refreshing somehow. And we never talked directly. I meant, we were talking in chat where some of people gather in there. And, at that time, th chat box was a little messed because of my recording. Someone leaked my cover I gave, and the two of them talking how wonderful my voice. Then, some other people wanted to listen to it too, but I didn't gave them all. I just gave to some people, cuz I'm not so confident with my singing.
I gave him my cover and soon after that he said it loud in the chat how wonderful and beautiful my voice. I'm happy people like my singing, but I don't really like when they say it in public or exaggerate it, like they did. And i always acted annoyed with their praise. Then, he messaged me and apologize. He didnt mean to embarrassing me in the chatbox, but he thought that my voice is really great. And because of his apologizes, we began to talk in private message.
That was my fault. I was the type who sometimes provoke people to tell their feeling and such. I've made some guys confessed their feeling to me because of that. And I made a promise to myself that I will never do it again. But then, accidentally I did to him. Not really provoked him. Besides, I didnt know his feeling. But when he said, "I will flirt back if you are not in relationship. I dont wanna get a kick in my ass." Then I answer him by saying that I don't have a boyfriend. Oh my gosh, I was so stupid. I could say that I have a boyfriend, if I want. But why I told him the truth? But, if I didnt say something like that, I wouldnt be his girlfriend right now, and I wouldnt know him more, and I will regret it.
So, here I am, with my new boyfriend who really really love me like crazy. And yeah, we are both crazy, lol. I really love him and so grateful because he loves me back not even twice, but more than that.
And, the funny thing of us is..
I was always wondering why a person like him exist and love me. And, he also wondering the same thing, reverse. We both think that we are the luckiest person in this world. And we both think each other is so wonderful.
I hope we can get along together for so long. I really want this relationship last forever...