(originally posted on 2017-02-13 | 16:44:30)

Looooooooook!

I’ve got this gorgeous rose bouquet from Mr. Sada for Valentine’s Day.

I am happily frozen.

This is way too much for me.

I was always wishing to get a Valentine’s bouquet since I was small. 💕

Mr. Sada, who is an alumnus of my high school,

once wrote me a very heartfelt letter too.

That letter means a lot.

When I think of myself being diagnosed with cancer,

I often get some feelings that deny who I was.

I deny

the way I take care of my body,

the way I think,

and at the end, the way I live my life…

Where did I take the wrong gear?
What should I have done at that time?

I blame myself for what I have done or have not done in the past.

His letter helped me realize something.

When I saw him giving us a commencement speech at my high school graduation,

I never imagined that one day I would receive a letter from him.

Considering this,

I can forgive myself

at least for having been living every day to the fullest,

filled with unexpected excitements.

For that, I am truly grateful.

This flower gift reminded me of that again!!

Self-forgiveness.

Mr. Masashi Sada