(originally posted on 2017-02-20 | 22:01:14)

I can’t be a mother without support from my mother and older sister now,

but today, I was able to do a mother job just by myself in the late afternoon.

I always think I am not enough as a mother now. But I cannot give up because I am a mother of two children.

My daughter said to me in bed today,

“I had a dream about you, Mommy.

You came to the kindergarten to pick us up.

On the way back, we were playing in the park,

but you fell down there.

I can’t forget the nightmare.

I am always worried about you when you come to pick us up.”

I want to become a mother, again,

who finds it normal to go to their kindergarten…

At this moment when I wrote about my small accomplishment

and strong desire that I had today,

I noticed that I haven’t changed at all.

What do I learn from this disease?

Asking myself self self self….

Ask myself