(originally posted on 2017-03-24 | 22:08:39)
It was another good day today.
Appreciate it 😊
Today,
I pushed myself a bit hard to hold Kangen as he fell asleep,
and now the bones have started to hurt.
Those which had radiation and some other parts that I didn’t even pay attention to start to hurt like old deep wounds.
My body remembers everything.
So if I push myself too hard, it reminds me how the body used to be.
It tells me;
“this part used to be like that, remember?”
Once you learned how to deal with them,
I also started saying what people who have more experiences with cancer once told me.
Sorry sorry
Calm down calm down
Be nice
Can’t believe I am going through the same now…
But,
I am here, at this moment, after all of those that I had overcome.
It’s so fragile now, but I also have confidence.
The confidence I got after all of those hardships is not supposed to be something that I show off to other people.
It’s just something that fills only myself with love.