(originally posted on 2017-05-21| 20:02:31)
This morning, when I was changing my clothes,
I stood naked in front of a mirror and checked myself out.
I saw something that I was terrified of…
my own body…
It was quite shocking, and I couldn’t stop crying.
This morning, when I was changing my clothes,
I stood naked in front of a mirror and checked myself out.
I saw something that I was terrified of…
my own body…
It was quite shocking, and I couldn’t stop crying.
But
I reminded myself that tears would not change anything.
I tried to calm down with soymilk cocoa.
Then after that, I watched the photos and videos of my kids to motivate myself to eat.
Well!
I left a half cup of porridge, but other than that I finished all the meals!!
The nurse was also impressed and gave me some clap.
Mentally, I’m still strong, haven’t got all thin yet!!
I had four blood infusions so far.
And after the port implant, I am able to get water and high-calorie infusion every day.
So I feel good and stable.
I am grateful about the port
as it solved some of the problems that I was concerned.
that I used to make for my Reika and Kangen.
They are so grown up now.
I’m also determined that I will continue to grow from here.