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ぱーぱす という曲の世界観から
私が今 描きたいことを描いたものです。
スッキリーーー。
言いたいこと言えなくても 絵は描ける。
もう、キレイにとか 丁寧にとか
そんなこと どうでもいいところ、
すなわち ほぼ気持ちだけ です。
メタファー的な意匠 ってところは
毎度なかなか難しいです。画力がないゆえ
この絵は 私の潜在意識の満足度も
えっらく ぶち抜けました。
うん分かるです、見てるだけでいいもの。
はふぅー！
こうして感じると、何が丁寧で
何が丁寧じゃないか 謎に思えてきます。
心が明確なのは 雑ではない。
わたしは、表現するからには
基本的に 妥協したくないです。
うまくするしないではなく、
表現したい心が出せないもの は
作りたくないし、書けない、と思います。
自分らしさっていうのも 何か超えると
なかなか どうでもよかったりします。
さぁぁ。いきましょー。ふぁいてぃん。
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Purpose
Feeling like I'm breathing my last breath
Feeling like I'm walking my last steps
Look at all of these tears I've wept
Look at all the promises that I've kept
I put my all into your hands
Here's my soul to keep
I let you in with all that I can
You're not hard to reach
And you've blessed me with the best gift
That I've ever known
You give me purpose
Yeah, you've given me purpose
Thinking my journey's come to an end, oh
Sending out a farewell to my friends
For inner peace
Ask you to forgive me for my sins
Oh, would you please?
I'm more than grateful for the time we spent
My spirit's at ease
I put my heart into your hands
Learn the lessons you teach
No matter when, wherever I am
You're not hard to reach
And you've given me the best gift
That I've ever known
You give me purpose everyday
You give me purpose in every way
Oh, you are my everything
Oh, you are my everything
I don't know if this is wrong
Because someone else is telling me that it's wrong
But I feel this so let me just like, try my best not to let this happen again
We weren't necessarily put in the best position to make the best decisions
You can't be hard on yourself for these were the cards that you were given
So you have to understand that these like
That's not who you are
You know you're trying to be the best you can be
But that's all you can do
If you don't give it all you got, you're only cheating yourself
Give it all you got
But if it ends up happening, it ends up happening
That's what it's that's what's happening with me
It's like God I'm giving it all I got, sometimes I'm weak and I'm gonna do it
And it's like I'm not giving myself grace
I'm just like understanding, that's just how it is